It’s been a tough year, but I have so many reasons to be thankful.
Every year feels like it’s a year of change, but in 2018, I’ve made some of the biggest changes of my life. With that change has also come a lot of self-doubt and uncertainty, but it also means the opportunity for growth and the chance to push myself to become better. Through the moments of joy, elation, confusion, anxiousness, peace, loneliness, love, delight, apprehension, disappointment, guilt, content, and everything in between, I have so many incredible reasons to be thankful this Thanksgiving and in general.
Okay, I’m about to get real cheesy, y’all, so if you can’t handle it, you can scroll on by, but I couldn’t make a thankful post without thanking the guy who’s changed my life the most this year.
When Kyle and I started dating, I didn’t realize how much of an impact he’d have on me and how much he would change my life for the better. He’s stuck with me through all of my lowest lows since the beginning of our relationship (and even before that when we were just friends), but especially over the last two months when I’ve been experiencing some of the hardest times since 2015. He makes sure I prioritize my mental health, and he does everything he can to make sure I’m being my best self and that I know my self-worth. He doesn’t show me he loves me by buying me flowers or writing romantic love notes; he shows me he loves me by taking care of me on the days that I don’t feel like getting out of bed, waking up early with me every morning to scrape ice off my car before I go to work, and being a provider while I work on pursuing a new career path. He never makes me feel like I’m a burden, he never punishes me for my vast and ever-changing emotions, and he believes in me even when I don’t believe in myself. We’re a team, and we bring out the best in each other. He makes me excited about the future because I get to spend it with him.
Beyond that, he also loves to go on adventures with me. We’ve traveled to so many places this year, including Nashville, New Orleans, Vegas, Los Angeles, Philadelphia, and many places on our epic road trip to our new home in Ohio. He makes life fun, he keeps me on my toes, and he doesn’t judge me when my ADD brain gets on a path for a new passion. That current passion is knitting. 🙂
For all those reasons and many more, I’m so incredibly thankful to have Kyle in my life.
A few weeks ago, I mentioned that I started working as a lead teacher at a daycare and preschool. While I’ve worked with children before, this is the first time I’ve worked with them long-term in this kind of capacity where I feel like I’m making a positive and long-lasting impact on their lives.
Even though I’m so in love with my job, my last day will be the end of this month because I’ve decided to get my post-baccalaureate in elementary education and pursue a teaching career working with younger children. I’m so thankful for my job as a lead teacher because it made me realize how much I love teaching and shaping the minds of the younger generation. Even though teaching isn’t something I’ve thought about doing since middle school, this transition seems so natural to me. I get sad everyday thinking about leaving my kids because I’ve formed such close relationships with them over the past couple months, but they’re the reasons why I want to do this in the first place. I’ll forever be thankful for the time I got to spend with them, and though it was brief, the impact will last a lifetime.
I have also recently accepted a job as an assistant teacher that’s closer to home, and the facility seems amazing. I think this is such a great move for me, and it will help with my studies currently and in the future when I start looking for observation and student teaching opportunities.
I’m so excited about pursuing this new career path as an elementary educator, and I’ll be sure to keep y’all updated on my journey! My classes start in January 🙂
MY FAMILY AND FRIENDS
Even though I moved a lot when I was younger, moving as an adult is so much harder than moving as a child. As a military brat, I got used to the fluidity of friendships, baby-sitters, and schools. As a teen and adult in Louisiana, I created stability, and while I lived in different cities and left for awhile to work on a cruise ship, Louisiana was my home for over a decade. Leaving was harder than I thought it was going to be, but I’m so grateful for my family and friends who have made the effort to check in on me while I go through this transition.
I’m super thankful for those who penciled in time for me to come visit. Between going to Charleston to introduce Kyle to my family, reuniting with my college roommates to see Taylor Swift in Houston, visiting Kyle’s family multiple times in both Ohio and Washington, meeting up with friends on our journey to Ohio, and all of the future reunions to come, I couldn’t be more thankful to have such incredible people in my life.
I’m also thankful for technology because it makes it so much easier to keep up with everyone. Between my new obsession with Marco Polo, keeping up with people via Insta Stories and Snapchat, texting, phone calls, and everything in between, I feel much more connected with my family and friends in spite of the fact that we’re hundreds/thousands of miles apart. I’ve also met some new friends using BumbleBFF, which I’ve mentioned multiple times, because if it wasn’t for the app, I don’t know how I’d meet new people in the area. Technology never ceases to amaze me.
BLOGGING AND THE BLOGGING COMMUNITY
2013 Tiffany never would have thought that I would still be blogging after all this time. Even though blogging has changed so much over the years, I continue to be thankful for the close relationships that I’ve formed with people I’ve met online. The blogging community is so supportive of one another, and I love when an online friendship turns into an IRL friendship.
Blogging in general has given me an outlet to express my thoughts and creativity. It combines so many of the things I’m passionate about, and the skills I’ve learned over the years are things I can bring to so many parts of my life. It’s given me confidence in my writing, and it also allows me to share parts of myself with both strangers and friends, including things I never thought I’d share. I always said I’ll only continue to blog as long as it makes me happy, and when I’m blogging, I’m often at my happiest.
There are so many days where I wish things would just be easy – that I didn’t suffer from mental health, I had a direct and clear career path that I started molding at age 18, that I didn’t have debt and had a stable career, and that overall things were easier, but then what?
This year, I’m so thankful for my struggle because it made me into the person I am today. Recently, I had two friends describe me as resilient on two separate occasions. This is a word I would have never associated with myself, but when I think about all of the battles I fought to get to where I am today, I decided to believe them and proudly accept that I am resilient. Even though I sometimes allow myself to give in to my darkest thoughts, I also do my best to allow myself to recognize and celebrate my victories. I’ve gone through so many life changes and hard times, but I’ve learned from my mistakes, fought my demons, made myself live and did my best to do it to the fullest. When times were tough, I made plans. When plans changed, I adjusted. I tried not to look for an easy out or a reason to give up. And while I didn’t do it alone, I still have to credit myself for fighting through it.
I’m so thankful for my struggles, because without them, I wouldn’t have been able to change, grow, and ultimately find my strength.
This Thanksgiving, I hope you reflect on all of the reasons you have to be thankful, including the times where your light shined the brightest and the moments when you thought about giving up. There’s a reason you made it to this day, and even if you’re going through a tough time right now, you have what it takes to turn it around and live the life that you want and deserve.
Wishing you the happiest Thanksgiving that fills both your belly and your heart 🙂
How are you celebrating Thanksgiving this year?